11th of April

Have you ever seen a ghost?

The kind that doesn't scare you but when you saw it you just stood there, staring at it and nothing was coming to your mind except the sight that was right in front of you.

I felt that. Except, it wasn't a ghost. It was a person.

They said that when you see someone from your past, it's kinda like seeing a ghost, especially when you haven't seen that person for a very long time.

2 years. I didn't see him for 2 years. It was like the thought of an apparition, I was scared to see him at first. I was afraid it might bring back the stupid feelings I had. I was afraid that it might still be him. After all these time.

You see, when I caught a glimpse of you, my feet refused to walk, my whole body just stopped. 2 years. I haven't seen that face in 2 years and there you are, in front of me.

And then, you smiled.

That smile captivated me before but surprisingly this time, there weren't these grand feelings that usually came with it. The animals in the zoo stayed in their cages. No butterfly escaped. And then, my body started to move.

We talked. But there were no light and soft backgrounds while you were talking. I was even drunk that time!

All I can say now is that your ghost will no longer haunt me. The ghost of my feelings have finally rest and I am finally free. I am free of the suffocating grip of unrequited love.

Because, after years and years of drowning in the wrong sea, I have finally learned to swim back to the shore where someone is ready to hold me and not let me drown.